Month: August 2017

Stripping (the clothes of shame)

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Just like the visible scars you see on your body

the other ones are there as well

They are the emotional scars that you have acquired

Some might say “Get over it” and make you

shrug it off but your subconscious mind is

taking notes and etching the stigmas/labels

and comments in your heart, spirit and soul.

SO…

I am undressing and talking off that coat

that says FELON on the back

I am taking off my pants that say

I was a SEX WORKER on the side

I am taking off my shirt that

says someone feels I am a low life

I am flinging my socks that say

I never had any ground (foundation)

to walk on or to call my own

As Eminem said,

“I am cleaning out my closet”

throwing out anything

with a negative attachment

because those were labels that

were acquired and the judgements

were made by others so just like the

child that felt trapped in a world

that I didn’t want to be in… now it is

time to show that child the nightmare is finally over.

Hiding

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I am in a place that I have only dreamed about

but I have an unwanted companion with me

my baggage is to heavy to go anywhere

I am hiding in the gym on the 1rst floor

sitting on the floor because I didn’t

know where else to go.I am using my computer

as a distraction because I needed an escape

as I feel like rocking and cant sit still

The baggage I was referring to earlier was

emotional and sorry to say the human company

I traveled with. When there is mental health

as well as addiction in your family tree

you can use it as an excuse (which I have)

for many years (decades) but the game is over

I take my demons with me where ever I go and

happy to say some  have retired or moved on

but I still have enough demons where I can only carry

my own, I can’t fight others demons when they …

can’t even see or admit their own sickness…

There are beautiful people in the world but

how can you feel the warmth if you let yourself

stay in a cold place.

 

 

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