Hiding

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I am in a place that I have only dreamed about

but I have an unwanted companion with me

my baggage is to heavy to go anywhere

I am hiding in the gym on the 1rst floor

sitting on the floor because I didn’t

know where else to go.I am using my computer

as a distraction because I needed an escape

as I feel like rocking and cant sit still

The baggage I was referring to earlier was

emotional and sorry to say the human company

I traveled with. When there is mental health

as well as addiction in your family tree

you can use it as an excuse (which I have)

for many years (decades) but the game is over

I take my demons with me where ever I go and

happy to say some  have retired or moved on

but I still have enough demons where I can only carry

my own, I can’t fight others demons when they …

can’t even see or admit their own sickness…

There are beautiful people in the world but

how can you feel the warmth if you let yourself

stay in a cold place.

 

 

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